Reality

... Back to reality, I still haven't passed my exam, I still have to work hard for the paper I failed. Accumulating the strength... the motivation, the inspiration, I will stand up... to face the obstacle, to overcome it! Prepare well, I will take the challenge soon after CNY celebration and I shall enter the 5th Year of medical course!

Winter trip - Sochi: no smoking Olympic City

Impression
That is the city where I can escape from coldness.
As the 2014 Winter Olympic Host City, it definitely is developing and has the great potential to host a successful one. There are lots of modern buildings with stunning design being built. Truly, it is the city with less smoke. As the smoke-hater, I like the city on this matter.

Krasnaya Polyana
The ultimate aim in the trip is to ski! However, I have failed to ski down the mountain. Although I made the first move, I fell down and blocked the skiing track, it was so hard for me to stand up so I gave up and thought that I should go to a lower lower pit for beginners but after a short rest in cafe having a cup of coffee and a pie, there was an announcement that the skiing site closed early due to heavy snowing and we failed to find the easier pit (perhaps they don't provide that). I was very disappointed. I have the feeling kind of wasting the money, rental of the skiing gears... and turned out doing nothing. I know I have the courage to make the further move, I know falling down is nothing as the snow is soft. We didn't have the full suit (gloves, skiing jacket, tracksuits...) but only the skiing gears, with only winter jacket and jeans (??). The Russians there were seeing us as jokes... The ski blades size is larger than my optimal size as it is according to the height of my friend (at first I rented snow board but not skiing gears, and my friend rented skiing gears; we thought of taking turn to play different sports). I think that is the reason why I hardly walk with the skiing blades.

Great photo taken in Adler-Sochi

Adler

The Railway Station

Adler - Black Sea

Krasnaya Polyana
-Too cold up on the mountain... so I can't take photo there. A group photo will be posted once I have it.

Group photo with me *fell down??

Sochi

The Railway Station

The Marine Station

Sochi - Black Sea

Sochi - Black Sea

Group Photo

The largest aquarium in Russia - Sochi Discovery World Aquarium

The last shoot on Black Sea on the way back - The Memory

沉重

梦想很沉重，依然坚持；这会是一个甜蜜的负担...”

这是母亲给孩儿的鼓励。

再沉重，我还是必须扛起来！
跌倒了，我会爬起来！

要战胜心魔，
要战胜内心的恐惧。

人生不能重来，
但失败的事，可以重来。
考试不及格，还有补考的机会。

考试不及格，
不能全怪制度的原因，因为真的我并不是很努力。

在东山再起之前，我想先享受我短暂的假期，期待已久的假期。
过后，我定会重新振作！

过了这一关，
就只剩两年了，
两年内，我希望我不再重蹈覆辙。
要为从医的梦想奋斗啊！

I'm here again...

to pray...
result of Obstetrics final announced later in the afternoon.
Pray to pass,
Amitabha.

忏悔

实在是惭愧啊！
忏悔中...

又在考试中作弊了...
胆战心惊啊！！！

虽然如此，我也算有自知之明，只是尽量答完所有题目。
答案我想也并不完整啦，只希望还是能够及格。

希望我在新的一年里真的能够除旧迎新啊！
改掉所有坏习惯吧。
认真学习，那么考试时也就不用在惊心下度过了。

铭记我的誓言！
最后一张试卷了，要奋斗！！！
然后开开心心地去旅行咯 :D

誓言

多少次了，总在考试过关后，誓言要更加努力...

第一张试卷过关了，很惊险地过了。从来就没有十足准备，好在考官大发慈悲，才得以及格。

我必须清楚啊，哪有每一次都那样幸运的。

这一次是真的了，
既然已经选择了这条路，就勇敢地走下去吧！
加油！奋斗！

If I could touch the sky

This is my blog title.

Actually this sentence is originated from a childhood poem...

Maybe I heard it while I was small. However, I had this feeling when I knew a sad news... 3 years ago.

Summer 2007:

My mom complaint about her poor-sightedness which had persisted for quite a long time. She decided to do a checkup. I accompanied her every time she went to Singapore for check-up and was praying for my mom...

The result is quite favorable but doctor said that there is the permanent crack in the retina and no cure for that. Fortunately, the defect is not severe and hopefully not worsen.

Ever since then, I must have realized the feeling of my mom... understand her and tolerate her in my life. Mom is strong to face the problem and she is still working hard until the age of retirement.

If I could touch the sky, if only I had the ability to cure my mom's eyes...

If I have realized all these... I shall do be best in my medical studies. I know the target, the future of my parents hoping for, the future that I will achieve. 

Mom said to me: be an ophthalmologist so that I can investigate more on her eyes and can cure it.

I will think about it in the future... 

to be a doctor, to protect my family and of course to save lives, prevent the sadness of losing the beloveds.

If I could touch the sky. 

That is the courage driving me toward my future,

I will graduate and step into the medical field, standing at the most front line of life-saving.

Say goodbye to 2010...

*after a long period of time, choosing which template I should change my blog to...
Finally back to the "sky" one.
I'm still a person who is not very decisive... yea, shall add this matter into my new year's resolution!

SO,
2010 -- The year which I had gone through many breaking points of my life; and so there are much more things for me to learn, to experience...

I folded a paper plane, carrying the words of my heart, the precious experience and memories throughout the whole old year, fly towards the brand new year.

I wrote this in my previous post (in Chinese) and also I sms her, adding:

If you receive the paper plane, you'll see my sincere wishes to you too.

I have realized some truths of life... and I shall never forget.

I always hope that I can find a true friend in my life... yet there aren't any in the city where I am now.

I wanted to regard him as my best friend... but i thought best friends share everything in their life... at least no secret kept while a question is out, isn't that the way?
I just felt hurt somehow... but i don't think he ever care.

I'm still being so introverted most of the time...
I don't understand why sometime I feel people avoiding me, maybe I act awkwardly?
I hate most of the time when people disagree on my opinion... I always think that I'm not influential.
Sometime I'm over self-opinionated and act without thinking about the consequences.
There weren't any improvement on me in this year... hopefully in the new year.

SO,
the new year's resolutions:

• TO BE MORE DECISIVE!
• to be more confident in everything I do and so to prove myself.
• to get rid of the bad habits.
• to improve my social ability.
• to enhance the threshold of my temper so I can stand my housemate.
• to think wisely for the rational way so to avoid any unnecessary conflict with anyone, not being over self-opinionated.
• to care the persons around me when they need.
• to improve my table tennis skill.
• THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE -- to build up the clinical mind and study harder in the final 2-year.

Happy new year to my family and friends!